Reflections from March 19, 2022—Day 8 of my journey.

Looking back now, three years removed from that first week of my journey, I find myself in awe of the strength and resilience that began to take shape during those early days.

After losing our son, Maxwell Seraphim, the grief felt insurmountable. It was all-consuming. There were days I couldn’t see a way forward—days I couldn’t imagine ever finding light again. And yet, somehow, I did. Somehow, I kept going.

And that’s the thing about pain—it has a way of revealing who we are at our core.

It is in the moments of our deepest suffering that we often discover what we’re truly made of.

Beyond 1%: Digging Deeper When It Hurts Most

On this day—Day 8 of my journey—I remember pushing myself to go just a little further. I wasn’t satisfied with simply being 1% better. That day, I reached deeper. I found strength I didn’t know I had.

It wasn’t a huge leap. It wasn’t some dramatic transformation. But it was real. And it mattered.

These are the moments that shape us. The quiet, gritty moments of effort. The decision to show up, to try again, to dig in when everything in you says “take it easy.”

Looking Back to Move Forward

Life moves fast. And as it does, it’s easy to forget just how far we’ve come.

Today, my wife and I are blessed with two beautiful, healthy children. Life looks very different than it did three years ago. But I still reflect on that first week often—not just because of the pain, but because of what it revealed: a quiet, burning strength I didn’t know I had.

There are moments in life when we all wonder, How will I ever get through this?

And the truth is—we don’t get through it all at once.

We start small. We get out of bed. We get dressed. We make a meal. We step outside.

That’s where the journey begins.

It took me nearly three months to reach the point where I could fully commit to this path. And that’s okay. Healing and growth are not instant. They are forged in time, patience, and persistence.

Over 1,000 days later, I’m still walking this path. Still holding true to the journey that began in my grief but continues in my purpose.

And if you’re in the thick of it right now—grieving, hurting, lost—just remember this: you have already survived so much. Look back. Look at what you’ve made it through. That’s proof that you can keep going.

Because strength is often revealed not in the moments we feel powerful, but in the ones we simply refuse to give up.

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